July 2012
106 posts
If I were gone, no one will cry
If I were to fly away and fall, no one will be there to catch me
If I were to keep walking, there is no one by my side
If I were to say i love you, there is no one by my side to say i love you back
If I were to say stay, there is no one that would stay for me
If I were to give my life for someone, there is no one that would give their life for me
If I were...
“When do you throw in the towel? Admit that a lost cause is sometimes just that?...”
– Meredith Grey - ‘Hope for the Hopeless’
June 2012
115 posts
you know those days when you wake up and yet you wish that you could sleep for a very very long time so you wouldn’t have to remember the pathetic situation you’re in -_-
“You do stuff for someone because you love them and then you wake up one morning...”
“Hey did you ever meet my friend Ian? He’s a computer hacker. He helped me...”
“Just because she/he didn’t love you just the way you wanted it...”
Oh what I feel right now… I feel like everything is my fault and that i screwed things up for everyone. I just really really want to disappear because that seriously seems like the only way everyone will be happy. Don’t want to talk or say anything for a while. I want to be alone. I guess that’s why being alone is better. You don’t get hurt and you don’t hurt people...
“Then why go through with love? if it can destroy you?
Because what you get, no...”
“Your face brings me death every day. And every day I can’t wait to die....”
“Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound...”
“Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we’re wired that way. Because without it, I...”
There’s nothing that kills me more than two people who love each other but can’t be together because of “outside forces”. Yes I understand, it’s hard, it’s not as easy. But so freaking what? It’s love. It’s not suppose to be easy but not complicated either. If two people love each other, they should be together. Love is seriously enough. And if...
“It’s a little bit horrifying just how quickly everything can fall to crap....”
– Meredith Grey - ‘Heart-Shaped Box’ (via greys-anatomy-quotes)
And that moment when you see that their life is so much better when you no longer exist.
“What happened to wanting me to be forever yours?”
All these strangers,
Walking up to me, hugging me, touching my face saying how beautiful I am asking me if I’m taken already. All this is making me upset.
“When someone hurts us, we want to hurt them back.
When someone wrongs us, we...”
“I want to marry you
I want to have kids with you
Grow old with you
I want to...”
It angers me how people are so damn cruel. So horribly cold and harmful. It angers me to think back on what happened to my aunt. She is the sweetest, most caring, unselfish person I’ve ever met. And the thought that someone came close to harming her brings such anger to me. That and the thought of almost losing her or any of my family members brings me such fear and pain. If I were to lose...
In this car ride, I can’t escape my thoughts and feelings. Too many thoughts tormenting me. I feel like escaping this world, at least, for a little bit. Not to feel anything. Not even the fear that something bad might happened. I might be surrounded by people but never have I’ve been so completely alone.
Fuck this shit. What does it matter anymore? Everyone hates me. I’m a horrible person. I’m just going to disappear for a while.
“Ambiguous loss differs from ordinary loss in that there is no verification of...”
– Finally found the correct term for it.
“They’re gone but yet still here”
“Thinking back I forgot to tell you this, I didn’t care that you left and...”
Close my eyes
And I see the scene again
It feels so real
The bright lights
The crying familiar faces
The pain
The feeling of your life slipping away
It feels so real
Then realization comes
And it’s not real
But wish that it were.
Sometimes I feel like an idiot. No, you know what, I am an idiot. Everything I do is very idiotic. I am stupid for feeling. And I don’t want to care, but I do.
“Strange as it may seem, I still hope for the best, even though the best, like an...”
“But when you come and all the flowers are dying
And I am dead as dead I well...”
